The world's just a game

Never have I ever thought, I would revisit here once more.
Never thought I would revisit the graves of the past which should be long buried by the sands of time.

The winds never do understand, do they?
That what should stay buried, stays buried.

I wonder alot these two years, even if I have finally awoken from what seem like a dream.
But has my dream ended? I do not know.

Maybe it hasn't.

This may be the beginning again.

Many things have happened.
Many people have walked in and out of my life.
Everyone has their fair share of ups and downs.

But right now, this very moment, I really crave for death.
And yet, immortality at the same exact time.

You may not understand why, and probably never in time to come.
I have lost my senses, lost my soul, lost my self.

Lost my entity.

I want to take back what I have lost.
To the extent that I wish to go back, and capture the moments that stole it all.
Before the stroke of destruction strikes, I wish to rake up the past.

I just want to stay here and watch the sky once more.

Why can't I just lie here and watch it?
Why does the sky seem to grow further and further away from me?

I can feel no longer. No matter how hard I push myself to react.

No one will watch the sky with me. They're all too busy.
Like the wings on the birds, everyone has thoroughly left.

I guess I should feel bliss. Since it was what I hoped for years ago.

But even so.

Would you watch the sky with me?

Let time stop now. And in doing so, let me be the devil who never ages.

In return, let my emotions which I have traded be paid for in full.

For sorrow, pain, and all eternity.

Forget. Just stay by my side.

And we shall watch the clouds once more.